Reminder:

EMBRACE

LIFE.

Every aspect.

No exceptions. 

Feel it.

Live it.

Breathe it.

BE IT. 

The Box

Have you ever wondered what it would be like to step outside of the box?

To break free from what you do every day of your life?

Have you ever noticed how the box is all in your mind?

Have you ever noticed how everything is all in your mind?

 Move beyond fear. 

Break free from the mind, break free from the box.

Hmm...

I've been confused.

But within that confusion I've never been clearer.

The only reason I think I'm confused is because what's been showing up in my life isn't what I thought it would be.

It doesn't meet the standards my mind has created for myself.

And that can be confusing because what I THINK I SHOULD be doing isn't what I WANT to do.

But none of that matters.

All that matters is that I see it for what it really is and follow it.

It makes me nervous.

But it's that kind of excited nervous you get right before you go on a roller coaster.

I think you should always follow that feeling.

It means there's risk and excitement and unknown.

There's vulnerability. 

It makes you feel something.

And that's always worth following.

I'm finding out that it's one hell of a ride.

Whatever makes you nervous...

Just Jump

I've been toying with this idea of trust lately. The word alone brings up a lot of feeling. For a lot of people, it comes with fear and anxiety. TRUSTING is never easy. The thought of it is scary. It makes you vulnerable...which is exactly what you need.

Vulnerability means space.
It's like a feeling of "Ok, here I am...do what you want with me."
It's a recognition that something is out of your control.

But there's something that I've been noticing more and more on a deeper level than just understanding. I FEEL it.

There is no control.
 
Everything I do seems to be accompanied by a feeling of vulnerability lately...a recognition that whatever happens is out of my control.

I put forth effort, and let go of the rest. TRUST the rest.

It feels like jumping off of something really high. The second you jump off, you're trusting something will catch you. You're becoming vulnerable. And if you think about it, it's during these times that you feel most alive.

The jump is the effort. The fall is the trust.

There is something about letting go of the idea that you have control, surrendering to the fact that you don't, and trusting in what the Universe has in store for you that makes you feel free. You feel more at-ease.

It happens in everyday life. The moment you get in the elevator or get in your car, you're trusting something. The moment you follow your gut and quit you job or walk in a classroom to take a test, you're trusting. You're allowing yourself to be vulnerable, to be open.

You do what you do, and trust the rest.
Because really, you have NO IDEA about what's going to happen.

Ever.

Under NO circumstances.


So just jump.

Because you never really know what can happen.

Let go.
Surrender.
Trust.

That's all it takes.

And through that I have never felt more nervous, yet excited, about my LIFE.

And through THAT, I have never felt more alive.

Go With It

I think there's something that can be said about people's passions. A lot of people keep their passions as their hobbies.

...why?

That's something I don't understand. You often hear "oh I work in a cubical, but my real passion is photography."

So you sit in your cubical.

Just trying to get by.

Why not follow your passion instead? Why not go with where your energies are flowing? Why not follow the thing that makes you excited about your LIFE?

There's always fear behind answers to those questions, like it wont pay the bills or it's not "secure" enough.

Life isn't secure. 

Security is nothing but a blanket of false ideas.

(just like everything else) 

I've been noticing opportunity follows those who follows their passions.

When you finally start moving WITH life, rather than AGAINST it, all of a sudden things fall into place.

Go with the flow.  

Go with where you're being MOVED.

Everything else will follow.

Sometimes...

you just gotta say

FUCK IT.

And leave it at that.

Bouncy Particles

I've been completely disengaged from school so far, and today, I decided today would be the start of getting my shit together.

So I was sitting in astronomy, looking up a camera I want since my Nikon D40 got stolen out of my dorm room...yeah, bummer...and then I realized I was so not getting my shit together.

Then I got a text from my friend...

"It starts today! lol" 

(she has a problem with excessively using "lol's" but then again, so do I. Along with the rest of the world because if we don't use an "lol," a text message might be taken too seriously because let's face it...do you really ever "laugh out loud?" Isn't that what "hahaha" is for? THAT'S how ridiculous we've become with technology. But I digress). 

She knows about my plans to get my shit together. (plans, HA!...like those even exist)

Anyway, that got me thinking about the word "starts." Do we really ever start anything? Or are we just shifting forms? 

It feels like I'm shifting. Not starting. And shifting in a BIG way.

How convenient that we were talking about energy and particles when I tuned into my class.

I realized that you never start anything, and you never end anything, because energy is what you are. And it's never born and it never dies. 

The energy of Who You Are shifts form moment to moment. You just have to follow it.

The energy you put into something is the energy you get out. 

Because you're nothing but a bunch of particles, reacting to the particles around you. Everything is just bouncing off everything else. Because it's all the same stuff. And it never stops.

It's an ever-changing process of moving and shifting and bouncing. 

It's like this:

<--------->

Energy moving and flowing in all directions.

Not like this:

---> <----- ----> ----> 

It never starts, and it never ends. 

You just are.

You're here.

With everything else.

That's exactly like You.

And that's that.